Thus concludes this chapter of Adam's birth search.
I asked Adam, at the very end of our interview, if he regretted that his hopes had been raised so high right at the beginning of his trip.
"It was a deep disappointment. I’m not sure if I’m angry at myself. Getting hopeful is okay. If I could do it over again, I wouldn’t let go of that. It was pretty awesome. The disappointment was just as important to feel. There was a lot of unresolved feelings about my abandonment and adoption that came grinding out during that time. I had to do this. This was just the beginning. I’ll probably be doing this for a very long time.
The more I learn about where I came from, the more I knew where I was going. Most of my life I felt like I was aimlessly wandering and I didn’t know where I was going. A lot of that is because I don’t know anything about my past.
Even though I don’t have all the answers, some of the past has taken shape. Even with the highs and lows, I feel that I know myself a little more. I’m happy about that. It’s a daily struggle with everything I’ve talked about, but it’s easier to face it than it is to run away from it." - Adam. 2014